Allowing Our Fears to Move Through Us
Aloha beloved soul family,
Four days ago, I asked Spirit for accelerated growth and evolution. You know those moments where you ask for expansion... and then life brings you exactly the thing you didn’t expect, but precisely what your soul needs? Well, two days later, life delivered.
Many of you have met my beautiful sweet healer dog, Hippo, in our home sessions. Hippo is not just a dog; he is a sensitive soul, a guardian, a mirror, and a deeply powerful transmuter…just like me, and just like my eldest child. Over the past two months, I’ve been on a mission to help him feel safe in this world and have been doing some intensive rehabilitation and training. You see, as a puppy, Hippo was attacked by two dogs and has some trust issues (especially with doggos). Since then, he has carried a fearful reactivity (with certain dogs), something I deeply understand from my own personal journey with trauma.
But what happened two days ago shook me to my core.
As I was taking out the bins, I left the gate open. Normally, no dogs walk down our quiet street and Hippo has been trained not to run outside. But this time, another staffy happened to be there and he saw red. In a flash, Hippo bolted, lunged and went into fight mode…and before I knew it, the other dog had locked her jaw onto Hippo’s face.
The fear was REAL watching my dog, who we absolutely love so much, getting hurt, it made me feel absolutely helpless in that moment. The other owner and I were freaking out as he was trying to pry his dogs mouth off my dogs head. And we were both just in a state of panic…Luckily, a neighbour appeared like an angel, calmly guiding us through the chaos - he whispered “put your finger in the dogs butt”. Look, I didn’t finger the dog but I pulled his tail and eventually the dog let go and Hippo was released from the lock.
There was blood everywhere. Hippo was bleeding. I was bleeding. The other dog’s owner was bleeding.
And in that moment, my entire being shook, not just from what was happening before my eyes, but from something much deeper - ALL OF MY DEEPEST FEARS COMING THROUGH ALL IN ONE MOMENT.
The fear of feeling of being absolutely powerless, echoing the times I witnessed domestic violence as a little girl, watching my mum get hurt and feeling unable to stop it.
The terror of watching someone I love be in pain.
And the burden of feeling like I had to hold it all together... by myself.
I broke down when I got to the vets and I let it all fall apart.
Even though this happened, I knew deep down, that this was part of both of our journey..so when the vet’s said “oh you poor thing, or I’m sorry that happened” which has always made me cringe… I responded with "even though this incident occurred - what I absolutely love - is that as soon as the fight was over, Hippo acted like nothing had even happened. If only WE were able to do that…I told her how beautiful it is that dogs have the ability to just let things go and that to me is magic”.
SO the next day (my birthday)...I chose to take some time to connect with nature..I went to the mountains. I stood beneath the waterfalls, went for a swim in the icy cold refreshing water and felt the rain kiss my skin. I placed my hands on my heart, closed my eyes, and whispered softly, again and again:
"I love you. I love you. I love you."
And slowly, my body softened.
I heard Spirit say clearly:
"This will not happen again. This was part of Hippo’s soul contract, to help you move through your deepest fears and love yourself even more deeply."
As I turned to walk back to my car, the sky opened up and a radiant rainbow stretched across the horizon. A sign of love. A sign of trust. A sign of healing. A sign of promise.
And so, I share this with you today because often the things we fear the most must come up to the surface, not to destroy us, but to free us. And that ain’t easy let me tell you. I literally cried on and off in the car on the way home from the mountains but I didn’t judge. I simply just allowed myself to release it all…I simply told myself that I honoured my emotions and that of course it is ok to feel this way and I told little Raizza that I loved her SO MUCH.
When we allow fear to move through us, when we meet ourselves with the deepest love, compassion, gentleness, and presence, it loses its grip.
If you’re navigating fear right now, place your hands on your heart, close your eyes, and lovingly say….
"I love you. I love you. I love you."
And allow it all to come up. Let it move through. Let it soften. Let it go.
Love is always the answer! I LOVE YOU. Thank you so much for all the birthday love yesterday.
Also the message from the full moon yesterday was “True strength is in our gentleness”….isn’t that so beautiful?
Just know that I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE TO SUPPORT YOU WITH MOVING THROUGH YOUR FEARS…
I love you
Infinite divine love, light, bliss and liberation,
Divine Raizza Aguisanda